Over the weekend I went for a walk with my son, armed with snacks and a picnic blanket, to our local park, which is abundant with nature. It has been such a joy to be with him these last few months as he starts learning language, and interacting in a more expressive way with the world. There is so much divinity in him.
He has taught me so much in the last 18 months, but the deepest teaching for me is showing me the divinity that also lives in me and helping me unlock it from the baggage of patterns, trauma, and mind stories that have held me small or rigid.
He has reminded me that my inner child is always waiting in the wings of my heart to play, to be in joy and to explore with curiosity.
As I sat with him on the picnic blanket under some trees and patches of sun hitting my face, I felt like I was exactly where I needed to be in life. Pulling silly faces, making bird sounds, waving to planes as they flew by, teaching him how to jump. So full of love, joy, and simplicity.
My past self would have rolled her eyes at how “uninspiring” it all seemed. But my heart felt at home. I knew it was exactly where I needed to be. And I let myself feel for a while that being a mother is a tremendously inspiring role and path I am walking.
I’m sharing this more private and intimate moment because it has taken me about 18 months to get here with my son, and my relationship to self, with becoming and being a mother.
The one thing that has moved me in this direction is being curious with all the emotions that have come up - not enoughness, new and old wounds, stepping into a new role, letting go and loss of identity (and so much more).
We are now in Cancer season, the season of the crab. A season I always connect to letting go of things we have outgrown. To not let your outer world be the measure of what can be your truth. And so there’s a shedding of sorts that happens in this part of the year as well as a stepping into something that feels more like you.
So my invitation to you, as you navigate the month and season ahead, is to let yourself be moved by the simple things, and if there's lots of undoing to be done let curiosity be what guides the way.
Be with the curiosity, even if it is uncomfortable, it might take time but it is sure to navigate you to a tremendously beautiful space - most likely one you could never dream up for yourself. Perhaps simple, yet beautiful.
Tarotscopes 🪞
How to use:
🔍Find your sun, rising or moon below.
📝 Let the words I offer below be the guidance towards your curiosity.
Cancer - Apprentice of Earth
Cancer your card shows a large mountain ahead, a long path, challenge or magnificent summit to climb. Prepare your body, your mind and your heart for the rise. There is so much ahead of you it might feel trepedatious right now, or there might be fear at the size of this metaphorical mountain you have to climb. But there is also the challenge, the learning, the evolution of you ahead of you. This is a moment that will change you. Bring this idea of curiosity i share above to your path ahead, move through this “mountain” with a curious heart and mind.
Leo - 10 of Coins
Leo there is a cycle that is either closing, or coming around to its origin. There has been a lot that has lead to this moment, lots of learnings, lots of people have supported you in this leap or stepping stone and now you feel like there’s a moment where you need to leave, choose another path, move in a new direction and start rebuilding. You’re not ungrateful, but you feel ready to move on, to choose different, to start fresh. And so this month curiosity supports you in leaning into what different might feel like, what a fresh start needs to be right now and what are the ways you can start to edge towards that.
Virgo - Apprentice of Fire
Virgo you are walking into a new endeavour, with a sense of ignited energy. As you move this month, just as this apprentice of fire card shows (image above) imagine you have a circle of protection around you, you are walking through the world not so much with an armour but with a shield. Let your curiosity be what moves you through the early phases of this new project/situation. If something doesn’t quite fit, or seem right, question it and investigate it with a curious beginners mind. Start to resolve whatever is not sitting right with you, but don’t let your own thoughts and bias cloud your way this month, for right now everything is fresh, you can protect yourself with your own intention and you can get by with a curious mind.
Libra - 10 of Wands
Libra, you are closing a cycle. Much like this season suggests things are not fitting, or you have outgrown somethings. There has felt like a lot of pushing and not a lot of receiving of late. Know that this month ahead is one where you start to put down the need to do it all, to hustle, to get ahead and you simply start to notice or get curious as to whether there might be another way. Perhaps its not so much the actual work/outcome but the way in which you show up for the thing. It is a change of heart, a change of mind, a new way to navigate and see the world. This month you get curious as to what lens you are seeing the world through and wonder if you might need to adjust your vantage point so that you can see other parts of the horizon. Notice what you are seeing.
Scorpio - The Sun
Scorpio the month ahead is vibrational restoration. The sun is here to shine a light on what matters to you and what you haven’t been able to see. With it, it brings clarity to things that have been laying in the dark or dormant. But the sun card can also burn us, it can ignite this quality of overstimulation. So when the moments of clear thinking or knowing arrive, sit curiously with them don’t act impulsive. Take stock of what is emerging within you as clear, bright, high vibing and move gently in that direction. The sun can carry a masculine quality, so ensure you still sit with the feminine aspects of your choices and decisions. Don’t let the momentum of things burn you out unnecessarily.
Sagittarius - 9 of Coins
Sagittarius this month there is a vibration waiting for you that allows you to slow see the beauty you have been missing. Notice where you might have dark spots in your mind that aren’t letting you see clearly. Can you get curious on what these repetitive stories, attitudes, perspectives and approaches to your days are that keep you from being in the sweetness of your days. This month see if you can be in the noticing, and see what light is able to seep through your life when you change, shift or let go of old ways of thinking and being. This is a perfect time to shed what you have outgrown, to declutter the mind and to invite in a sweep of fresh and pristine thought.
Capricorn - 8 of Coins
Capricorn this month you recieve a card that shows the lunar cycles in the depiction. The moon is always changing, morphing in the way we see her from earth and this is an invitation to know that you too can also shift shapes, and the perception people have of you might change but this is ok because you are changing, evolving and moving through different phases. You can shine bright some days and other days go into dark mode, or only have a sliver of you to share. This month I invite you to follow the lunar cycles (july 11th full & july 25th new) and notice for yourself how you too have cycles of newness, of fullness of waxing and wanning. Take note of what you have to give on certain days, and what you require from others to give you. Keep a journal for the next 30 days as an exercise in curiousity to support you in understanding the rhythms of you, notice if you are changing, morphing, and what you are cycling through in this moment. Let the moon in the sky, be a teacher for you on how to show up in the world this month.
Aquarius - 7 of Coins
Aquarius this month the roots you are growing under the ground are tremendously long, stable and helping you form foundations for the future. You might not be able to see these long deep rooted paths but this month you have to trust that the work that you are doing is not for nothing. The day you plant the seed is not the day you eat the fruit. If it feels to you things are taking too long, if you are trying to rush the process, if you are getting impatient or frustrated with not being recognised, or not seeing the fruits of your labour know that this month is foundational for what is growing. Instead of this frustration turn your mind to curiously reinvision what you are growing under the surface.
Pisces - 6 of Coins
Pisces this month there is a real push and pull coming up for you. This idea of give and take is really brought to question. Ideas of worth and value, are repeating themselves over and over this month. At times you feel really rewarded, seen and valued and other times you might feel you are begging to fit in, be heard or have your needs met. Begin to curiously examine these polar opposites and how they are showing up in your sphere in particular when it comes to work, but it could also be in relation to relationships. What is repelling value from you, and what is attracting value to you? What are the thoughts, mindsets and beliefs that need to reorient themselves in order for your life to start feeling in balance, for you to start feeling worthy and for life to feel like you are in appreciation for your precious gifts.
Aries - 5 of Coins
Aries this month you are growing and expanding. The world as you know it is changing, and with this comes discomfort or a stretching of your capacity because there are new routines, expectations, environments that are being introduced. I want you to remember that the universe is constantly expanding, and thus this change, shift and growth that is happening is the way of life and the laws of physics. This month these shifts might feel a little more noticeable in your sphere, and take comfort in knowing that there is always a moment when things begin to feel normal, in flow, abundant again. Take this moment of stretching into a new shape to get curious of your potential, of your capacity, of your resilience. You have so much more to evolve into.
Taurus - The Empress
Taurus this month there is an explosion of the feminine, you dive deep into your desires and start to recognise what it is that you are creating for your self and you relish in it. There is a bursting, and sprouting and budding nature to you this month, creativity and source is moving and flowing through you. It is a beautiful time to start an art project, to take on a new hobby, to paint and express yourself or to kick of a creative endeavour that has blossomed in you. This energy is one you can ride through the month, let yourself meet the creative waves with curiousity this month, they will be your guides and show you the way through these new tides and currents you are moving through.
Gemini - The Moon
Gemini this month you are wading the waters of the unconscious, the unseen. There might be things coming up for you that have been dormant in you, or that you have felt are big unknowns as you move forward. The Moon is the feminine, the slow, the unearthed parts of you and so this month there is a slow unveiling of these parts of yourself and a call to soften into them, to give yourself space to dream, to wander, to not know the next action and to sit with anything that feels like it might spark a curiosity in you, to endeavour to be comfortable in the discomfort. The moon is also a wise shape-shifter and so she is here to remind you that you do not need to stay stagnant, that you can change and morph and evolve through this cycle. Fullness and newness awaits. I invite you to follow the lunar cycles (july 11th full & july 25th new) this month as a reflection to you of these different phases.
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Con Amor,
Agatha Carmen x
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